10:34 p.m. | 2006-02-18 I’m Throwing Down My Dance Card. I’ve been on a dating hiatus. Mostly because I’m not a dating game victor. That should be clear from the fact that I’m still single. However, I have to say that I’m happy I’m still single. With one exception, I’d be horrified if I had married anyone I previously dated. Yes, I am a dating disaster. Or well, maybe I was. During this most recent hiatus, I decided to focus on myself. At some point, it became very evident that I was the common denominator in all my failed relationships. All arrows pointed at me. That’s hard to ignore. Denial only goes so far. That’s what I’ve been doing. Focusing on myself and the inherent problems within. Much like the Orkin man, I’ve been discovering and eradicating all the pests. So to speak. And, I think I’m ready to date once again. I imagine that there will be some false starts, but I’m okay with that. On the other hand, in order to date once again, I have to find some willing participants. That part? Much harder. I’m older now so I’m not dipping into the same pool of partners that I was swimming in when I was in my twenties. If you’re in your twenties, please realize how large that pool is. However, I’m not dismayed. Somewhere there’s a guy for me. Of that I’m sure. I’m less sure that I’m ready for all that. I have been resolving some of my own problems, yet I’m still a little gun shy. What I do know? I like flirting and I do that well. It’s fun. I guess I hope to flirt with the right guy at some point. Trust me, I’m in no hurry. I’m just thinking about it. I’m putting myself out there more and I’m receptive. Or, at least I try to be. Maybe it’ll happen, maybe it won’t. I’m okay either way. Yet, I really would like to have someone in my life. Someone to share things with, someone to give me a great big hug, someone to pat me on the head and reassure me that everything is A-Okay. It’s not necessary, but it’d be real nice. As such, I throw down my dance card. Only time will tell if someone signs it. Perhaps, I shouldn't throw it. your thoughts? seed flower