10:03 p.m. | 2006-04-25 Country Roads Often Take Me Home. I come from ranchers and farmers, pretty much. Throw in a few teachers, civic leaders and really incredible people, actually. Politicians, inventors, bankers... the whole gambit. Cowboys too. The one thing we all have in common is, well, a remarkable ability to achieve while floundering. Seems odd. To excel at not excelling. I posits that it’s more common than not. The main culprit? Insecurity. That’s a main line in my family. Everyone feeds from it. Incredible talent, incredible work, incredible looks even, yet lots of floundering. My legacy. I figured I couldn’t ultimately change that. I was wrong. I can look at the past and appreciate all that’s been accomplished – I’m often astonished by my forefathers and foremothers – and see where things need to go for the future. And, there’s no future without the past. It all works together. Sometimes, that’s not comforting. I understand that. Trust me. Where I come from, I don’t want to go back to. Yet, my past is part of my present as much as it is my future. Those lines? They’re direct. You can run but you can’t hide. But you can change things. Only within yourself, of course. When you change yourself, however, you’ll find that it has some sort of ripple effect. I don’t know, I’ve always been a changing sort of person and I’ve always recognized that some people aren’t so changing, if you will. The changes I’ve made lately though? Good ones. And, I’ve received responses that I hadn’t expected. I’ve always been a recorder, in the sense that I’ve always studied people and waited for their response before I’ve responded. For the record, I believe that’s called “cold”. Apt reaction. Warranted too. The fact that I can be introspective doesn’t make me a great person. Introspection, while not always key, does keep me humble. For a day or whatnot. I’m not humble a lot I guess, but I do want people to know that I don’t judge, I don’t guess and I don’t know... about you. I think your past is part of your present as much as it is your future. In other words, we’re pretty much the same. Except I hope your past isn’t so much of your present that it destroys your future. But other than that? We’re good as gold. Just don’t hurt my heart. your thoughts? seed flower