11:05 p.m. | 2005-04-07 Everything�s Turning Up Roses. Not too long ago, I received a raise. Then, I received a promotion accompanied by another raise. And today, I received a bonus. My normal reaction would be to think that I�m seriously jinxed at this moment. All that good unescorted by any kind of bad? Armageddon on the horizon. At the very least. Yet, I�ve been doing the opposite of my normal lately � in a vain attempt to be �normal� � so I�m just accepting all of this without the expectation that the other shoe is about to drop and crush me. Except that tiny portion of myself that is still not convinced all this good can come without bad. That portion? Crossing my fingers against the jinx. When I think about it though, I�ve already been dealt a really bad hand so maybe this is the balance. Maybe one good thing doesn�t have to be balanced by twenty thousand bad things. At least, that�s what I�m thinking. And, it doesn�t stop there. Recently, BestestGirlfriend and I attended a health fair. It was pretty much a bust until we realized that we could get a free massage. That was great. My masseuse pulled out my arm in a really weird way and ended up popping my back where it�s been messed up since my car accident a few years ago. I hope that helps. I had to laugh though when she was massaging my lower back and had this to say: You have this weird thing right here� um, I mean� hmmm, this is� do you have spasms here? Of course I do. But not as many since she popped my back. Then the super hot guy that works in our building ended up walking across the street at the same time I did. We walked together. I�ve never actually talked with him before so that was interesting. He�s never paid me any attention so that was new. However, he seemed to know quite a bit about me. I, on the other hand, don�t know much about him other than the fact he�s the �hot� guy in the building that all the single women yack on about. He is handsome. But, it was his eyes that garnered my attention. They�re as blue as mine; it was like looking at a family member with the signature eyes. Well, except that he�s not family. Not that I know of anyway. And, he is hot. That�s for sure. Don�t read this wrong though. I�m not �after� the hot guy in the building � or any other guy for that matter � it was just an interesting exchange. It�s all about new things to me. Since I�ve been working on myself, a whole different world has opened up. Lots of new stuff. And, I�ve kept up my Lenten promise of shutting up and just listening. Wow. Really, I�ve learned some amazing things. I�m going keep practicing that. It�s like a slot machine. It just keeps paying off. The most amazing thing though is the feedback I receive from all of you. Thank you for encouraging me to write whatever gibberish I put down. Your diaries inspire me so much and your compliments mean more to me than you�ll ever know. Thank you. your thoughts? seed flower